I started coming to The Crossing Church after several invites from my daughter. It was during the Chasing Happiness series, which I cried most of the way through. I didn’t have a strong Christian upbringing – it was definitely more guilt-based than grace-based. I remember being very young and my Grandmother telling me that God would get me back tenfold for every one of my sins. I think I believed in God more out of fear than out of true faith.
I started partying and using when I was 13 years old. I gave birth to my second daughter before I graduated from high school, was widowed by age 21, and had my third daughter shortly after. I had broken every one of the Ten Commandments in some fashion, had tolerated years of domestic abuse that I believed I deserved, and was on medication for anxiety and depression when I walked through the doors to The Crossing. Nothing I did could help me escape the guilt, shame, and resentment I felt from my past. The hardest part of feeling so hopeless was trying not to let my daughters see it in me. I had taken them to church when they were younger, and tried to teach them faith, but I wasn’t living it myself – and attending church just made me think of all the ways I had let God down.
When I walked into church I had not used for almost three months, and I didn’t know how to function. I had nothing to dull the emotions. I had no hope. After attending every week for a month, I was still hurting but I was also trying to fill up my mind and soul with all of the good things I was learning about God. Hearing every week that “God is for you, He is not against you”, “He forgives you… He’s not mad at you”, and simply “He loves you” – that planted the mustard seed of faith I needed. It made me HOPE!
Finally, I had a conversation with a pastor after a Tuesday night believer’s service where I bent a knee and asked Christ to lead my life. In that moment, my life changed. I have purpose. I am forgiven. I have hope.
Now I’ve been baptized, I get to serve on an awesome team, I’m attending The Crossing College - all because The Crossing has put those opportunities out there for people like me to increase their faith and hope and to grow in relationship with Jesus. It’s all about Jesus! I’m not perfect, but I’m saved – and it is because of Jesus and the outreach mission of The Crossing Church.
I am so very grateful to Pastors Eric and Kelly and the amazing staff at The Crossing Church. I’m grateful for your hearts and passion for Jesus. I’m grateful that you are living your calling of helping lost people find Jesus. You have passed that passion on to me! Truly, I thank you for bringing me to this place in my life.