Hello! I have struggled with addiction to methamphetamine since I was twelve. I am now thirty. I have been through a childhood of abuse, the loss of my father at age twelve, and my mother at fifteen. I went to Catholic and then Lutheran schools and was always judged and treated badly. I never felt accepted or welcome.
I had a period of eight years sobriety, had my children, and went to college. I graduated with my Bachelors Degree in Criminal Justice Administration. During this time I wasn't in recovery, I was just not using. I did nothing to better myself emotionally. I relapsed after eight years sober, immediately following the death of a close friend. After this I had a CHIPS case with Child Protection, almost lost my kids, went to a few more treatments, etc.
I met the love of my life, Israel, when I was about six months clean. He is an alcoholic and was in recovery. We moved in together and I took on the role of a stay-at-home mom with his twin four-year old boys, and my four-year old son and seven-year old daughter. We started drinking together slowly. Only once in awhile and only a few. But eventually it ended up in a domestic situation and our lives fell apart.
I relapsed again using meth intravenously and I left home with my kids. We were both miserable and couldn't be away from each other anymore. We knew we needed help.
That's when we found The Crossing. We were immediately welcomed. People talked to us and the sermon spoke to us every time (and continues to!). The first time we attended I prayed that my cravings would be taken away. I haven't had a trigger or craving since that very moment, and this is a miracle, as I couldn't go a minute without thinking of using and entertaining the idea.
I currently have six months clean. I serve on the Quality Team, I went to an RTF session (Restoring the Foundations), and Israel and I both attend Growth Track. Israel also volunteered a lot of his time with the stage construction before Easter. We have grown together and see each other in such a beautiful way now. I love waking up and going to church every Sunday, and so do our kids. I am in my fifth week of my Masters program in Addictions Studies and I have huge goals and a vision for the future and what I can do to save lives.
My point is this: I never actually felt like I was in recovery or wanted to better myself until I walked in the doors of The Crossing. EVERY aspect of my life has changed. This is what was missing every other attempt at sobriety. I now have no fear of what's going to happen and I am now able to see the positive side of the negative experiences.
Israel and I are still facing the consequences and legal issues regarding the domestic situation we had and we have been fighting an uphill battle for almost a year now because of it. Even though this is happening to us, we wouldn't have done the work we have on ourselves and our relationship without that obstacle.
Now we walk with Jesus every day. We tithe and we are blessed in return. I just really wanted to share how much this church means to me and let you know that you really DO make a difference and you really really touch people! I am so grateful that I took that step into those doors! Thank you so much for making this all possible for us!