Psalm 37:23-24 The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way; though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the LORD upholds his hand.
I hope I am not alone when I say I feel like I’m losing it – and feel this way most of the time.
On paper, I am a mess. I have been diagnosed as anxious, depressed, diabetic, and most recently with a seizure disorder. I have struggled with substance abuse, worked plenty of unfulfilling jobs, and had a series of romantic relationships that came to bitter ends. I have watched people my age and younger relocate to exciting new places, land their dream jobs, buy their own homes, and marry their soulmates. This has all taken place in the amount of time it took me to live what feels like nine different lives and move back in with my parents. Here I stand at the cusp of 31, and feeling like a failure of an adult. These are the facts. This is my reality.
But it is not my truth.
God has brought me through to this place and not to leave me to drown. I know He will continue to lift my head above the crowd as I follow the steps He is establishing for me.
Luke 3:23 “Jesus, when he began his ministry, was about thirty years of age.”
Just think of how quickly this man’s life changed: beginning His ministry, performing miracles, and bringing hope to the multitudes, dying with sin at the cross to SAVE US ALL - all in the course of three years. How incredible is that?!
What I am on paper may be factual, but it is not the end of me. The truth of who I am is not based on what people say or write about me, but to Whom I belong. The truth is what we speak in faith together every week during worship at The Crossing Church: I am deeply loved (even in my darkest moments), highly favored, greatly blessed, totally righteous (despite any mistakes), and destined to reign, because of Jesus. I will continue to declare this truth until I am where God is calling me to be. There is something so much bigger than me and anything I could imagine that He has at work for me and may be right around the corner.
The truth is what God has written and believed about us from the start. No matter your circumstances, your mistakes, or your shameful secrets – your identity lies in the eternal One who created you, and loved you so very much at your darkest moment that He gave His life for yours.
When it feels like reality is taking over, remember the TRUTH.
-Written by a student from The Crossing College